Things have been major busy since Kota left on a mission. We had a surgery. Then I had parent teacher conferences. Then I tried to refocus on all the college work I neglected getting everything done.
Then we received a phone call last Tuesday night that Kota was coming home from his mission. He wasn't ready to go yet. For reasons that are personal to him, he is home. As my Minnesotan family says, "Uffda!" Total kick in the heart. Sad for the kid coming home, sad for the explanations, wishing I could have done things differently...total drain on the emotions.
Instead of going into a complete depression
I have learned to think before casting stones. For I have also sinned and am unable to judge another according to the Savior in John chapter 8. I am going to grow in this next year waiting on the mission return or not and watching the healing of the atonement wash over my family. Boy, am I glad we have an eternity to figure everything out.
My heart and prayers were for you all when I heard this. Been there, done that was going through my head. The circumstances were not exactly the same, but the feelings sure were. However, you have a young man who is honest with himself and the Lord and I have no doubt he will be out as soon as it's the right time for him. In the mean time, please give him a hug from us and tell him how much we love him and how proud we are of him. I always think that courage isn't always about facing a fear...I think it's mostly about doing the right thing no matter what. Love you all!
ReplyDeleteI certainly think that life hands you some lemons sometimes....and it's up to us to make the lemonade. You are doing that. Don't be too hard on yourself, someday Kota will witness to some youth like himself and be a help and source of strength for him. It will all be ok. It's hard to be strong for everyone else but I think that goes with the word mom. Prayers.
ReplyDeleteThat's my very favorite scripture there, girlie. Because it is true, and I have called on its promise many times. Yaya is right; it is wonderful that this change came about because of Dakota's honesty with himself. THAT is true repentance and change of heart. (Which, by the way, is the biggest thing a mission teaches most of us.) I have no idea what it is for, and it doesn't matter to anyone but him. He has come a long way already, and he can make it the rest of the way. He has much loving support around him, including from our family. You are all in our prayers!
ReplyDeleteWe are thinking and praying for you all. All of our love!!!
ReplyDeleteknow that my thoughts and prayers are with you, though I am not familiar with your circumstance. But God knows the reasons and He is always right. Kota has already grown in this, for him to have the courage to face this. It's not the end. It's a new chapter.
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